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Nowhere to be Found

I’ve tried shouting your name against the horrible
darkness that pervades my mind,
hoping that you will hear my call and come to aid me.
But only the echo of my voice bounced back from the
depths of my fragile mind,
repeating your name over and over again.
You don’t know how hard it is to keep silent and still,
when the world around me is slowly crumbling down.
I wished with all my heart and with my eyes closed,
that you will appear before me and hold me close,
protecting me against the shadows of despair that
looms above me, and banish away the hurts that sear
my flesh.
Only when I opened my eyes and as my wish fades
from my lips,
the only thing that I see before me is nothing but a
shadow of a thought I’ve created to help me instead.
I’ve nothing left but emptiness inside me because you
were nowhere to be found.
Not even my call reached your ears and now I am
wondering why.

-Little Ink Elf 042913-




What’s with all the lies and empty lines
when all that was wanted was a taste of heaven
in your arms?

The pleasure hidden in your kisses felt before
is now a memory swept away by the sea of time
that took everything there is of you.

How can this be the reason why this heart beats so?
When it beats with a bit of pain from absence you are so used to,
just an empty seat that is filled no longer by you.

No room for hope because everything is deteriorating,
when words of love are no longer professed,
just a silent tomb of broken bits of promises.

-Little Ink Elf 050613-

Fix Me


These broken pieces keep on falling,
patch me as I have I seem to be breaking.
The years have taken their toll on me,
this body can’t take no more of this folly.
Of loving too much but ended up hurt,
the scars have already run deep,
deep into my soul.

Fix me is all I ask. Fix me and make me new.
I have lost myself in the passage of time,
now I no longer know who I really am.
Remembering is hard to do,
I’ve lost too much and the pain’s still fresh.
I want to quit life yet here I am living.
Waiting for someone to fix me.

-Little Ink Elf 032713-



Offering love with hands scarred by long lost lovers.
Boundless beauty lights her up from within.
Yet in her unnatural grace she knows,
that beauty doesn’t last so do her lovers.

Beating heart broken time and time again,
useless tears keep falling over and over again.
Her sorrows she bear in silence,
so becoming in her own pale face.

No sigh will escape her lips,
when her lovers disappear.
But a smile will shine upon her face
when blood stained tears pour,
from those who chose to defile her
unadorned love innocent of lies.

Until satisfaction she receives,
as she presses a chilling and nightmarish kiss,
on feverish cheeks of a lover
bowing down on bended knees.

– Little Ink Elf 031113-

Fading Memories

In the corners of her mind she wanders
her jumbled thoughts never making any sense.
Try as she might her grasp always falters.
memories slip between her fingers
forgetting faces and feelings.

Memories like who held her hands last,
and what love really meant,
nothing seems to matter to her
as she strolls around her head,
with a vacant stare.

She remembers nothing, not even the butterflies
that follow her around and flutter
when she comes across a face she once knew.
An old lover or a broken hearted man.

Nameless faces never stirred life in her eyes
for they are all the same.
No one deserves a place in her heart for they’ve given
nothing but empty promises and a broken heart.

Because at the end of the day
when everything’s over,
all that is left are forgotten faces
and fading memories not worth remembering.

– Little Ink Elf 030513-

Untitled II

Sitting underneath the star-studded skies,
I whisper a prayer to the heavens above.
That I find the freedom to love you completely,
with nothing to bar my heart nor break my hold.
For this love I feel, you nursed to life,
yet now I question its validity.
Am I free to love you dear,
or will I crash and fall to an endless abyss?
Filled with questions and confusion,
bitterness and endless tears?
My heart has opened up to you,
and I hope your heart has too.
I may not have all the skills of a lover,
yet when I say “I love you” I mean it
for it’s the truth.
Even now when silence reigns,
I think of you night and day.
You might fall back in love but not with me,
I’ll just cherish our memories,
no matter how fleeting they may be.

-Little Ink Elf 021113-

I Fell For You

i took a bite out of the love you’ve offered me,
for you’ve coated it with honey kisses and passionate pleas.
i fell for you and the sweet promises you’ve given,
i could not help but feel like a fool for listening.
i am trapped in the snare you’ve laid out for me,
stupid child, so blindly trusting.
i thought i’ve learned my lesson long ago,
to never wear your heart on your sleeves.
although i do long for kisses sweet and deep,
and soft caresses against my skin,
never again will i be tempted,
by empty words and broken promises.

-Little Ink Elf 020813-

Hurt Never More

Tired of all this bullshit
this feeling of being torn apart.
my insides are twisted into a knot
wondering why you haven’t come back.

This tale of ours has only begun
but it seems the attraction is already spent.
I wonder what made you turn the cold shoulder
was it something i said or something i didn’t say last?

My heart you wrenched from me
now you’re gone and never coming back.
What’s left of me I need to pick up from the ground.
Rebuilding these walls I’ve put up
to be hurt never more.

-Little Ink Elf 011713 –


Tempestuous love, where have you gone?
This lonely heart is aching for your warmth.
The shades I’ve drawn for I haven’t had the heart
to gaze at the predawn alone in my room.

Wicked love, how you’ve played me so.
I thought there is something special waiting for us.
Yet, you cower and flee from the fire in me
afraid to be burned, afraid to be consumed?

Betraying love, I haven’t had the heart
to fight, to be angry, to cause you pain.
I love and have loved you before
but this I will let go for I am nothing to you.

-Little Ink Elf 011513-

Temper Your Longing

temper your longing my heart
your time will come soon enough.
there’s no need to rush for there is time
to savor the moment.

curb your feelings dear heart
take it slow, take it gently.
love can be wicked and tricky
be brave but be cautious too.

things can happen pretty fast
leaving you dizzy and out of touch.
whirlwind romance can be fun but
sometimes it might leave you hurt.

this feeling that is building o heart of mine
savor it, learn from it, embrace it.
but don’t be fooled by charming words
and flowery promises for they are sharper
than a well honed blade that can cut you
to the quick.

-Little Ink Elf 010613-

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